Thursday, December 18, 2008

Me Time

I like being alone. I've never been what one might call a social butterfly. I love spending time with family and the few friends that I have, but the streets have never called my name. I wouldn't say i'm a total homebody, but I do enjoy my time at home. It doesn't take a lot to make me happy.

There are people who see something wrong with this. They think I should go out more. I'm just fine and don't understand why people always feel the need to judge and put their two cents in.

There are so many facets to my personality. Sometimes i'm shy, and sometimes i'm outgoing. Sometimes i'm soft-spoken and other times i'm loud. I'm confident, but have self-esteem issues from time to time. I can't figure myself out half the time, but I do know that I enjoy being alone.

It's my writer's spirit. I'm a bit of a loner. Being by myself is not a horrible thing. It gives me time to clear my head and come up with new ideas. I've made a lot of realizations and formulated a lot of plans during my me time. Considering the fact that i'm always thinking, I think that alone time is necessary. My mind is always racing and I need quiet moments to get my thoughts together and calm my ever working brain.

I know people who need a crowd and find it hard to function if they're not the center of attention. If that's their thing so be it, it's just not mine. I cherish those days when my husband and children are gone and I have time to sit down and watch a program I like, book and pen in hand. I try to edit my book every chance I get and it's much easier when i'm alone.

I'll admit I haven't had a girl's night out in a very long time. I've been spending most of my out time with my husband. That's fine with me. He has his night, every Thursday. I could use an occasional night out without him, I just haven't made it a priority. We've grown a lot closer since we started going to our couples meeting. The meetings are over and I really miss them, but i'm glad it has helped our relationship.

I just got back in contact with an old friend that I haven't spoken to since March. She has a very demanding job and has been really busy. We're going to get together and do something when she has time. I'm looking forward to it. I've missed my friend. Neither one of us have been doing much. There was a time when she and I were always on the go. It'll be nice to have her back in my life. No matter what, you always need that special friend.


Keith said...

It's Okay to have a little me time.
My Night is Friday Night..My Father's night was Wednesday Night.
My Mom never had a night..and I always thought that that was unfair. She did have her sisters..
(and they would get on the phone and cut up..this was before conference calls..) I could write a blog post about this.lolol.

Keith said...

Hey Tammy,I need to thank you for inspiration...I wasn't going to blog at all last night..and after I responded to your response became my blogpost for today-"Within My Own Universe" I figured I should give credit where credit is due..I hope I can return the favor one day. Thanks again.
Your Kindred Spirit...