Wednesday, March 3, 2010

A Grandma Is Born

In my last post I talked about real love. I haven't always been sure what that was or if I experienced or even gave it. It was somewhat of a mystery to me. I didn't always have the confidence or trust that things were genuine. Of course I feel loved by those in my life that I cherish. I love my family and friends very much.

All the doubts I had faded away February 21, 2010. That is the day that my granddaughter, Lia, was born. I never knew love like this existed. Being a grandmother changes you immediately. My heart was filled with unconditional love the moment she was born.

I love my children but there is a space in my heart that can only be occupied by Lia. It belongs to her. It's different. It's life changing. I will never be the same. I'm a grandma.

I look at that precious little face and all I can do is smile...........or cry tears of joy. She's so sweet. I have never felt this way for another human being. I had to call my mother and ask her if the same thing happened to her. She just laughed. It's nice to share that knowing giggle with my mom. We bonded without saying a word.

The first time I held Lia I felt like my heart was going to melt. I took in every inch of her face. Everyone says she looks like me. Her other grandma wasn't too happy about it but guess who is. It's a wonderful feeling to be able to hold my child's child in my arms. She's so alert.

Little Lia looks into your eyes like there's something she needs to say. She seems to have knowledge. You feel like you can have a conversation with her and she'll understand what you're saying. Man I love her! All I could think of as I looked into her eyes was all the things we'll talk about and all the times we'll share.

I'm a grandma. It's like a rebirth. I started to look at the world differently the moment I knew. My children are grown and I don't worry about them as much as I once did. They don't need me as much. I will always do my best to be there for them. They don't always want my help. They're adults. I'll always be their mom. Let's just say my role has changed. I'm a grandma.

My husband wasn't very happy when he found out our son was going to be a father. He's 19 and has a lot of life to live. Daddy never really adjusted. It was hard on him. He was worried about his baby. I did what I could to help but he never really warmed all the way up to the idea. That all changed the moment he held Lia in his arms. His shoulders released and his heart warmed. He was a proud grandpa.

It was so cute to watch him goo gooing and singing to Lia. After only a few minutes he christened her Sugar Bear and let everyone in the room know he was the only one who could call her by that name. Granddaddy was born.

I am forever changed by the birth of my granddaughter. She is amazing. I feel amazing. I'm going to do all I can to make sure she has the life she deserves. Lia has no idea how she is loved. We will all be sure to let her know as often as we can. People say i'm different. I was told I looked serene. When they ask me why I simly look at them and say, "I'm a grandma."

Today is my birthday, but I was reborn the day my granddaughter came into my life.


CareyCarey said...

That's such a touching story.

Yes, there will be bumpy roads ahead. Well, I was a father at 18, and living with my mother and father. Without their help, I don't know what I would have done. As the world turned, I am also a grandfather. In fact, I just had that little knucklehead for a week. *lol* I called his mother and ask her if "we are there yet". After about 3 days, I was ready to send him back.

But, it is a new start and a new life, for all.


Mizrepresent said...

Well Congratulations, Young and beautiful Granny! I know you are high on life and that beautiful grandchild of yours. She is indeed beautiful. I remember loving my kids just as much but i will treasure the day that i can love my grandkids even more. Enjoy luv! Enjoy, well i know you are already and i am happy for you :)

James Tubman said...


Strongblkwmn said...

Carey - It's definitely the start of a new life. My granddaugter lives about an hour away. We'll have her for the week at the end of the month and I cannot wait. I won't want to send her back. She can't talk yet. LOL!

Mizrepresent - Thank you so much. I'm definitely high on life. New life can do that to you. I'm going to love being a grandma.

James - Thank you.

MsKnowitAll said...

Congratulations Grandma!

I smiled all the way through your post. Beautiful!

MsKnowitAll said...

Oh the picture came up later... She's absolutely gorgeous! Children are blessings & grandchildren are added blessings. I pray that you delight in all of your moments with Lia.

Strongblkwmn said...

Thank you MsKnowitAll.

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