Thursday, September 3, 2009


I am really starting to hate my job. I've prayed on it constantly and have to ask for strength to make it through the day. I start looking forward to Friday every Sunday night. Migraines have been a constant problem and I know it's because of my occupation. I can't stand it.

It's actually not the job. I can do what I do with my eyes closed. The atmosphere is not a good one and the level of petty behavior disgusts me. It's hard for me to believe that grown people act this way. Gossip, gossip, gossip....blah, blah, blah. I can't take it. At this point I don't socialize very much at all. I spend most of my day chillin' at my cubicle glancing at the clock from time to time.

Hulu has become my friend. I have two monitors so I work on one and watch what I want on the other. It really helps to pass the time. I'm 41 years old and I really do not have to time to stand around and talk about people or complain. I don't like my job but I also know that talking about how much I don't like it isn't going to solve anything.

I'm working on getting my book out and praying that it will do well. I know it's good. I love it. To be able to make my living as a writer would be so amazing, even if I had to work a part-time job to supplement my income. What i'm doing right now just does not work for me at all.

It's tough to leave a job with great benefits when you have bills and a family. If it wasn't I would have been gone a long time ago. Right now i'm just trying to survive and keep my head above water. In my heart of hearts I know I will not be here forever. I just have to keep my head up and make things happen.

Wouldn't it be great if we could all make a living doing what makes us happy?

6 comments:

MsKnowitAll said...

Hey Sis,

You are echoing my exact same sentiments right now! It's crazy. I love my job, I chose this job, this profession & I am committed to it... but I can't stand the complaints especially when in our job descriptions there's that little part that say "and other duties upon request". Nobody likes to do more work than hours will allow but somebody out there in unemployed and wouldn't mind doing it...

I apologize for ranting in your comments section... I have more to say but I think I may just blog about it another time...

Keep focused on your goals. Finish writing your book. When it takes off, you'll be successfully saying goodbye to them folks, moving on to better. Let the pettiness of the day be your motivator.

Strongblkwmn said...

MsKnowitAll - No worries about the rant. I feel you. Thanks for stopping by. I definitely have my eyes on the prize. I'm visualizing the day I leave with a handshake and a smile.

Bradley Huff said...

I'm honored to be in the "I'm inspired by" column...wow! Thanks! You'll leave your job soon...I just know it.

Solomon said...

Just keep doing what you're doing and every thing will work out. It sounds like you're on the right track.

Strongblkwmn said...

It's a struggle but i'm trying. I'm not having a good day today but i'll be fine as soon as I get out of here. :-)

Strongblkwmn said...

Huff - You are definitely an inspiration. I'm going to be a published author like you one day. You'll be one of the first people to get a copy of the book.