Sunday, November 15, 2009

I'm Tired

I'm tired
Tired of letting other people's insecurities affect my disposition
Tired of scared little boys wrapped up in big men's bodies
Why are you so angry?
Why do you refuse to look at yourself?
Do you even know who you really are?
I'm tired
Tired of judgmental people who cannot judge themselves
Tired of prying eyes and nosy bitches
Get your own shit
Why you ridin' mine?
Don't worry about what i'm doing or what's going on in my life
Is yours in order?
Are you that one perfect person God decided to create?
I'm tired
Tired of worrying about how this and that is going to work out
Tired of feeling like I just can't be
It's no ones fault but mine
For some reason I can't see that half full glass
No matter how hard I try
And it's bringing me down, even when things are going good
I'm tired
Tired of the things I won't admit to myself
Tired of the people I know I don't need in my life
Why can't I just let them go and move on?
When I know...
I know they're no good for me
Their negative energy is making my shoulders feel heavy
And changing my posture
I'm tired
Tired of getting up early in the morning
Tired of getting dressed to go to a place I can't stand
To be around people who make me want to scream
And spend time doing things that don't matter to me at all
It's such a waste
But them bills have got to be paid
I'm tired
Tired of people who walk around like their shit don't stink
Tired of people who think the rules do not apply to them
Who do you think you are?
Get your nose out the air
And find a clue
The world and all it's inhabitants do not revolve around you
I'm tired
Tired of angry people
Tired of unnecessarily loud voices
Why are you yelling?
Do you know how ignorant you look and sound right now?
It's laughable
You're joking right?
No one can really act this way
Sometimes I feel like Florida Evans
I'm tired
And sometimes I just want to be left alone
To my own devices
I'm not complaining
I have a good life
Filled with the love of good people
I guess it's just one of those days
Those venting days
Those f you days
Those get away from me days
One of those days that just make me want to say
There's so much more I could say
I'm tired...


MOMSWEB said...

Girrrrl, I'm tired too! Just plain TARD (lol).

CareyCarey said...

I understand. When I got tired enough/when i realized i couldn't change anothers opinion/when I stop putting my happiness in someone elses basket/that tiredness became mine to own/when I came to believe love don't love nobody/I looked in the mirror and said why/why did I talk about it?/what can I do about it/ I had to dig deep/some things never change but I could/ I had to find a balance and find what really pleased me AND defend it/ because some things never change

CurvyGurl ♥ said...

Hey Tammy! Talk about familiar feelings and thoughts, I've sung this song before...I think most of us have actually.

Solomon said...

Just try to keep it positive and tomorrow will be a better day.

Strongblkwmn said...

Thanks all. I needed to vent. LOL! Instead of yelling or calling a few folks and letting them have it I did what I do best. Writing instead of shouting actually made me feel better.

Momsweb - You made me LOL!

Carey - I'm working on all the realizations. As soon as I can get out of my head i'll be okay. It's just taking me a minute.

CurvyGurl - It's a song i'm trying to stop singing but folks just don't make it easy at all.

Solomon - I felt a lot better as soon as I finished this. Just needed to get some things off my chest.

Mizrepresent said...

Dang gurl, you put all the things i feel on a bad day in this matter what it feels good to get it out, right...i loved it!

Strongblkwmn said...

Mizrepresent - I was having a bad day. It definitely felt good to get that off my chest. Thank you, i'm glad you liked it.

James Tubman said...

never ever ever hold anything in

you have to let it out in some way

Strongblkwmn said...

James T. - Had to get my write on before I exploded.

A Free Spirit Butterfly said...

I feel you on some of these. Specifically, the getting dressed to go to a place that I cannot stand. And the one about yelling. What is that all about? Probably never got their point across growing up (LOL)

Love ya!

Strongblkwmn said...

Hey Butterfly - I think people who yell all the time are scared to grow up so they act like infants. You're right about that one.

Don said...

I've been there myself. I cannot give any great advice, cause there seems to be no sure fire way to avoid feeling like this. At least not completely all the way.

I just awake every day mentally and emotionally prepared for whatever the day brings. As I'm sure you also do.

Heartfelt read. I've never seen you vent before. LOL.

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