Monday, November 23, 2009

Today's my father's birthday. I've been thinking about him a lot lately. He'll be a big part of my life no matter what. It really does not matter that he is not here with me physically. I miss him so much.

I broke down a couple days ago because I was wishing my daddy was here. There are so many things going on that I wish he was able to be a part of. He would be the best great grandfather ever. That's the main thing that bothers me. My son will be a father soon and I wish my dad was here to meet his great grandchild. He would love it.

My son never really got the chance to get to know his grandfather. My father died 11years ago and my son is 18. They would have been so close. I know it. It really saddens me to know they will never have a relationship. They look and act so much alike. My son even swallows like my father.

I love my father with all my heart and miss him even more. I just hope i'm living a life that makes him smile. I know he's watching my every move. He wouldn't be my daddy if he didn't.


Don said...

Love the post. I too share the sentiment when it comes to my dad's bday. June 23rd. He passed when I was only nine years old. So, like yourself, it saddens me to know that my seeds won't know how it felt to have a relationship with my father, as I never truly experienced it myself.

Your breaking down speaks of nothing but love.

Solomon said...

I lost my father when I was six. It is hard some times to think of what could have been and also what even could still be if he were still alive today.

Nice Post as usual.

SLC said...

I like people real enough to break down. I also think there are good break downs and bad ones. Bad ones are those that take place when someone is too prideful to have a good one. Like that co-worker of yours that thought you were grasping at straws when you mentioned your alarm clock going off after you asked your daddy for a sign. She needs to have a good breakdown before she has a bad one and needs to call a STRONG BLACK WOMAN for some comforting words.

Love you,

A Free Spirit Butterfly said...

My heart goes out to you and the three strong brothers above who also lost their dads. The Lord has a plan and we have to trust it.

Happy Birthday to your dad.

Love you!

Strongblkwmn said...

Thanks everyone. It helped me a lot to be able to blog about my dad and what I was going through. I'm sure he'll be around when my grandchild is born.